seriously. it has been raining for what feels like an eternity. it makes it hard to be motivated or fun or creative or interesting. all i seem to think about is sleeping, sweat pants, and movies. today i looked at hawaii pictures on the internet to get some sunshine in my life.
i think i have discussed what a not-morning person i am before. well, i'm now sharing that quality with the dog. so, last weekend we took mo to get groomed. i asked them very specifically to leave a little fur on her, even if it meant she needs to get groomed more often. i don't like having her shaved and it's starting to feel like fall, so she might appreciate some coatage. i thought we were on the same page, so i left mo, shaking like a little leaf, in the care of the groomer. i picked her up three hours later, and it was like she was a different dog. she's shaved. totally. barely a fuzz. no curls at all. and she's been shivering for a week. since then, she has been sleeping in bed with us all night. before this, her m.o. was to hang out for about 15 minutes and then get down and sleep on the floor or couch. now she's been glued to my side all night long. so this morning the alarm goes off, and i snooze it, of course. two snoozes later, though, it's time to get up, like NOW, because it's already one more snooze than i should have done, and it's practically NIGHTTIME out still but ok, ok, already. i look at molly, and ask quietly "go outside?" which usually wakes her up immediately and she makes a break for the door. not this morning. she barely opened her eyes, flopped her head back down, and snuggled in more tightly (if that was possible).
now that's my girl!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
artsy
my headache is gone. sorry for my absence. i took a break from computer screens. i had a couple days off from work, and decided that possibly the cause was too much fluorescent light and computer screens. it may not have been, since the headache carried on until saturday, but it's gone now. thanks for the advice!
this week promises to be mellower than the last few which is really nice. over the weekend, i had a couple spa treatments done--facial, reiki, vichy. they helped too. the funny part: molly doesn't lick faces for the most part, even if you ask her to. when you are sad, she will lick your tears, or once in a great while you get a random surprise from her. the facial i got was organic and food-based; it smelled just like apples, in a mouth-watering way. when i got home, she kept licking my face! it was so funny. i guess that's proof positive the products were super food based.
we need to get moving on some wedding stuff; we've been a little stalled lately. we need to book our plane tickets and lodging and send save-the-dates. i think we've both just been feeling so busy lately we have no energy left over for wedding stuff (it seems we trade days of late hours/busy-ness). on friday i spent part of the afternoon making one of my childhood comfort foods for dinner: my mom has this recipe for homemade mac and cheese (and also chicken and celery and pimiento) that i had been craving. since william has been taking the lion's share of cooking, i thought i'd kick in and share a family favorite. it turned out like mom's! i was pretty proud. then william had to work late, and i fell asleep on the couch around 7 pm! but when he got home we had dinner anyway.
this weekend though, we did one of our favorite things: just bumming around town together on a sunny afternoon. we hit up the st. paul art crawl, and i bought a photo i really love from someone showing in the same space william did. we stopped by one of our favorite vintage shops and i bought some small glass jars too. they're bright blue and have these cool bubbley tops. i'll post pictures--we finally found our camera charger--hooray!--so there will be photos to come, just not tonight since it's getting late.
overall a good weekend, although the crappy weather that persists does nothing for a girl's mood. it's been dark and rainy and cold and crappy, and i know it's just the way it is, but i'd like a little more sunlight.
clearly i'm in a little bit of a blogging rut tonight, so i'm gonna cut bait.
this week promises to be mellower than the last few which is really nice. over the weekend, i had a couple spa treatments done--facial, reiki, vichy. they helped too. the funny part: molly doesn't lick faces for the most part, even if you ask her to. when you are sad, she will lick your tears, or once in a great while you get a random surprise from her. the facial i got was organic and food-based; it smelled just like apples, in a mouth-watering way. when i got home, she kept licking my face! it was so funny. i guess that's proof positive the products were super food based.
we need to get moving on some wedding stuff; we've been a little stalled lately. we need to book our plane tickets and lodging and send save-the-dates. i think we've both just been feeling so busy lately we have no energy left over for wedding stuff (it seems we trade days of late hours/busy-ness). on friday i spent part of the afternoon making one of my childhood comfort foods for dinner: my mom has this recipe for homemade mac and cheese (and also chicken and celery and pimiento) that i had been craving. since william has been taking the lion's share of cooking, i thought i'd kick in and share a family favorite. it turned out like mom's! i was pretty proud. then william had to work late, and i fell asleep on the couch around 7 pm! but when he got home we had dinner anyway.
this weekend though, we did one of our favorite things: just bumming around town together on a sunny afternoon. we hit up the st. paul art crawl, and i bought a photo i really love from someone showing in the same space william did. we stopped by one of our favorite vintage shops and i bought some small glass jars too. they're bright blue and have these cool bubbley tops. i'll post pictures--we finally found our camera charger--hooray!--so there will be photos to come, just not tonight since it's getting late.
overall a good weekend, although the crappy weather that persists does nothing for a girl's mood. it's been dark and rainy and cold and crappy, and i know it's just the way it is, but i'd like a little more sunlight.
clearly i'm in a little bit of a blogging rut tonight, so i'm gonna cut bait.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
like relievin' a headache
so, let me speak about this headache that i seem to have inherited from somewheres.
i have never had such a headache in my whole life. it's really weird. it's the beginning of fall allergies, and it hink i have those. and when it rains, allergies act up. but it hasn't been raining THAT much, and i don't feel like the pain is in my sinuses. rather, it's a pulsating pain, which fades to an ache and back and forth like a pendulum, throughout the day. i woke up three times last night, each time with the headache worse than the last, but i think i was waking up from the nightmares i was having. i'll reiterate here that i'm not a "headache person." i don't suffer from migraines, thank god. and it is certainly nothing like what my friend marissa (i can't seem to make a link work tonight: http://mariskris.blogspot.com)—check out her "What Doesn't Kill You" entries—went through recently.
my guess? it's a mixture of lack of sleep, stress, and allergies. but i don' t know. the pain is my jaw, the sides of my head, down the back, my neck, and shoulders. i have tried advil, excedrin migraine, heating pad. the only thing that seems to have really helped so far is the heat, but some of the pain returns when it cools off.
any remedies out there? this is cramping my style (ha, ha). i'm finally getting done with work at normal times for the first time in weeks, but i can't do anything because i don't want to move my eyeballs.
speaking of, i'm off to shut them. wish for me i wake up headache-free!
i have never had such a headache in my whole life. it's really weird. it's the beginning of fall allergies, and it hink i have those. and when it rains, allergies act up. but it hasn't been raining THAT much, and i don't feel like the pain is in my sinuses. rather, it's a pulsating pain, which fades to an ache and back and forth like a pendulum, throughout the day. i woke up three times last night, each time with the headache worse than the last, but i think i was waking up from the nightmares i was having. i'll reiterate here that i'm not a "headache person." i don't suffer from migraines, thank god. and it is certainly nothing like what my friend marissa (i can't seem to make a link work tonight: http://mariskris.blogspot.com)—check out her "What Doesn't Kill You" entries—went through recently.
my guess? it's a mixture of lack of sleep, stress, and allergies. but i don' t know. the pain is my jaw, the sides of my head, down the back, my neck, and shoulders. i have tried advil, excedrin migraine, heating pad. the only thing that seems to have really helped so far is the heat, but some of the pain returns when it cools off.
any remedies out there? this is cramping my style (ha, ha). i'm finally getting done with work at normal times for the first time in weeks, but i can't do anything because i don't want to move my eyeballs.
speaking of, i'm off to shut them. wish for me i wake up headache-free!
Monday, October 8, 2007
my sweetest downfall
fatty summed regina up best, i think: "the more i'm here, the more i love her, but the more i'm here, the more i hate this place."
have you ever noticed that singer-songwriter-piano-player-types always have the worst crowds? do people just completely THROW common courtesy out the window when they go to shows? i don't get it. besides the loud i'm-wearing-a-suit dude talking his way through the show about how he only rolls in BMWs and the teenage girls texting everyone, then checking everyone else's texts and squealing, to the guy who asked my friend to excuse him (finally! politeness!) and then stood so close IN FRONT of her that he STOOD on her FOOT, i had had it.
it's a new venue, great sound, but still terrible. it was so packed--no one could see. i ended up watching the show from--get this--a tv in a lobby. because no matter where we walked in the room, we couldn't see anything. a small tv. with basically no color on it. yep, i watched regina on a 27-inch tv in yellow and black. mm hmm. glad i spent $30 for that! her last show was no better (though not her fault). loud, loud, loud people next to me (counted 'em: 10) sang through every show. so i paid for karaoke, essentially.
i'll never understand that. a loud rockin' show, sure. sing and dance. a quiet one-girl-one-piano show? shut up. shut up. shut up. unless it's a singalong at the end. that's different.
regina spektor took some growing on me, but now she's definitely one of my favorites. i'm shocked at her range, her sense of humor as she plays complex pieces, her lyrics, and her pitch-perfect voice. probably one of the best technical musicians i have had the pleasure of seeing live. love her. love her!!
today i came home while the sun was still out. amazing what that did for my mood.
also, i am having thoughts about my dress. new thoughts, remaking the bought-dress thoughts. i had a dream about it. hmmmm. i can't really talk about it here though which is the hard part, since william doesn't want to know. so again, i can send out an email if you let me know you're interested in my thoughts. :)
i keep meaning to rise above the daily grind posts, but i just don't have the juice right now. once recovered from crazy hours, i promise some quality blogging.
have you ever noticed that singer-songwriter-piano-player-types always have the worst crowds? do people just completely THROW common courtesy out the window when they go to shows? i don't get it. besides the loud i'm-wearing-a-suit dude talking his way through the show about how he only rolls in BMWs and the teenage girls texting everyone, then checking everyone else's texts and squealing, to the guy who asked my friend to excuse him (finally! politeness!) and then stood so close IN FRONT of her that he STOOD on her FOOT, i had had it.
it's a new venue, great sound, but still terrible. it was so packed--no one could see. i ended up watching the show from--get this--a tv in a lobby. because no matter where we walked in the room, we couldn't see anything. a small tv. with basically no color on it. yep, i watched regina on a 27-inch tv in yellow and black. mm hmm. glad i spent $30 for that! her last show was no better (though not her fault). loud, loud, loud people next to me (counted 'em: 10) sang through every show. so i paid for karaoke, essentially.
i'll never understand that. a loud rockin' show, sure. sing and dance. a quiet one-girl-one-piano show? shut up. shut up. shut up. unless it's a singalong at the end. that's different.
regina spektor took some growing on me, but now she's definitely one of my favorites. i'm shocked at her range, her sense of humor as she plays complex pieces, her lyrics, and her pitch-perfect voice. probably one of the best technical musicians i have had the pleasure of seeing live. love her. love her!!
today i came home while the sun was still out. amazing what that did for my mood.
also, i am having thoughts about my dress. new thoughts, remaking the bought-dress thoughts. i had a dream about it. hmmmm. i can't really talk about it here though which is the hard part, since william doesn't want to know. so again, i can send out an email if you let me know you're interested in my thoughts. :)
i keep meaning to rise above the daily grind posts, but i just don't have the juice right now. once recovered from crazy hours, i promise some quality blogging.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
sunny saturday
the clouds have lifted! i worked until 10:30 last night, but i believe the long nights are over for a while. and the day dawned bright, then rained, and now is the perfectest day of bright blue skies and bright yellow and red leaves. and it's, like, 80 degrees outside. weird. but beautiful! i'll take it. it's like god's way of saying "you worked your whole summer away, here's a good day for you." nonetheless, i have made my clothing transition to fall and i just can't wear summery stuff anymore. i've changed the mindset for clothing! can't go back.
otherwise, a quick errandy trip to ikea (none of the candles that i wanted, boo)--but we did get some mats for our bathroom (three little circle ones, funky!). quick trip to target yielded some new towels and a ladybug halloween costume for mo (pictures to come!), and a shower curtain (black and white graphic dots to match the new mats). hooray! we have needed those little updates for the bathroom for a long time.
tonight; regina spektor. i'm excited! william, fatty, and i are going.
hooray!
otherwise, a quick errandy trip to ikea (none of the candles that i wanted, boo)--but we did get some mats for our bathroom (three little circle ones, funky!). quick trip to target yielded some new towels and a ladybug halloween costume for mo (pictures to come!), and a shower curtain (black and white graphic dots to match the new mats). hooray! we have needed those little updates for the bathroom for a long time.
tonight; regina spektor. i'm excited! william, fatty, and i are going.
hooray!
Thursday, October 4, 2007
my buoy
i'm tired. i'm really, really tired. exhausted. i am working like crazy. it will be a good thing in the end. it is very hard right now.
yesterday i burst into tears at my desk. that is the first time that has ever happened, save for when my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer. i felt totally unprofessional and unhinged, and managed to pull myself together after a few minutes and it was after most people had gone home, but i was still mad at myself for doing it.
william continues to be a total rock. he is handling my schedule far better than if the situation were reversed, i think. i admire that about him. and when i came home today and i wanted to just sit down and cry, simply because i'm so tired, and i feel guilty for my absences, he asked me, "how 'bout i make dinner and we watch tv and i give you a back rub?" and he smiled. and it wasn't a cruel joke. right now, he is making a very involved dinner, i'm not even sure what is going on in the kitchen. it was the biggest sense of relief i have felt in a long time.
he manages to buoy my spirits at times when i want to pout or stew or brood. i am so lucky. i'm so tired i barely feel anything at this point besides a pounding head, but i feel lucky. click, click, click goes the knife on the cutting board as i click, click, click on the keys so i don't lose my readers, or my promise to keep on the blogging wagon.
god i love him.
yesterday i burst into tears at my desk. that is the first time that has ever happened, save for when my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer. i felt totally unprofessional and unhinged, and managed to pull myself together after a few minutes and it was after most people had gone home, but i was still mad at myself for doing it.
william continues to be a total rock. he is handling my schedule far better than if the situation were reversed, i think. i admire that about him. and when i came home today and i wanted to just sit down and cry, simply because i'm so tired, and i feel guilty for my absences, he asked me, "how 'bout i make dinner and we watch tv and i give you a back rub?" and he smiled. and it wasn't a cruel joke. right now, he is making a very involved dinner, i'm not even sure what is going on in the kitchen. it was the biggest sense of relief i have felt in a long time.
he manages to buoy my spirits at times when i want to pout or stew or brood. i am so lucky. i'm so tired i barely feel anything at this point besides a pounding head, but i feel lucky. click, click, click goes the knife on the cutting board as i click, click, click on the keys so i don't lose my readers, or my promise to keep on the blogging wagon.
god i love him.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
today i. . .
had a headache all day (four in four days, yes! am i going to explode? stay tuned.)
stood in the rain waiting for the bus
walked home in said rain
was cold
had a ton of work to do
so much that i forgot about a meeting.
felt bad about a lot of stuff i'm too tired to blog about
my new shoes? ate my foot. they suck. i am hoping i can take them back and call them defective. i have horrible bruises, yes, bruises on the back of each heel. (the cute purple ones with the elastic-back heel that seemed so great? they suck. and today i talked to no less than three women, one of which gave away practically brand new tory burch flats with the elastic-back heel becuase of the pain they inflicted. save yourself the pain and the money. they are BAD).
but
i had a spare pair at work by TOTAL luck. hooray for that! otherwise idon't know what i would have done.
had comfort food dinner made by my mom
listened to the flaming lips and foo fighters on the bus
came home to my sweet dog and my fiance
a good ending, no?
stood in the rain waiting for the bus
walked home in said rain
was cold
had a ton of work to do
so much that i forgot about a meeting.
felt bad about a lot of stuff i'm too tired to blog about
my new shoes? ate my foot. they suck. i am hoping i can take them back and call them defective. i have horrible bruises, yes, bruises on the back of each heel. (the cute purple ones with the elastic-back heel that seemed so great? they suck. and today i talked to no less than three women, one of which gave away practically brand new tory burch flats with the elastic-back heel becuase of the pain they inflicted. save yourself the pain and the money. they are BAD).
but
i had a spare pair at work by TOTAL luck. hooray for that! otherwise idon't know what i would have done.
had comfort food dinner made by my mom
listened to the flaming lips and foo fighters on the bus
came home to my sweet dog and my fiance
a good ending, no?
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