tomorrow

i'm real, real, real tired. for real.
last week and weekend kicked my butt.
but i'm alive. and i have a funny story about falling down.
so when i can type more thn like 20 words a minute (this took a long time and a lot of backspacing) i'll update.
tomorrow, tomorrow, i'll love ya, tomorrow. it's only a day away!

my buoy

i'm tired. i'm really, really tired. exhausted. i am working like crazy. it will be a good thing in the end. it is very hard right now.
yesterday i burst into tears at my desk. that is the first time that has ever happened, save for when my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer. i felt totally unprofessional and unhinged, and managed to pull myself together after a few minutes and it was after most people had gone home, but i was still mad at myself for doing it.
william continues to be a total rock. he is handling my schedule far better than if the situation were reversed, i think. i admire that about him. and when i came home today and i wanted to just sit down and cry, simply because i'm so tired, and i feel guilty for my absences, he asked me, "how 'bout i make dinner and we watch tv and i give you a back rub?" and he smiled. and it wasn't a cruel joke. right now, he is making a very involved dinner, i'm not even sure what is going on in the kitchen. it was the biggest sense of relief i have felt in a long time.
he manages to buoy my spirits at times when i want to pout or stew or brood. i am so lucky. i'm so tired i barely feel anything at this point besides a pounding head, but i feel lucky. click, click, click goes the knife on the cutting board as i click, click, click on the keys so i don't lose my readers, or my promise to keep on the blogging wagon.
god i love him.

today i. . .

had a headache all day (four in four days, yes! am i going to explode? stay tuned.)

stood in the rain waiting for the bus

walked home in said rain

was cold

had a ton of work to do

so much that i forgot about a meeting.

felt bad about a lot of stuff i'm too tired to blog about

my new shoes? ate my foot. they suck. i am hoping i can take them back and call them defective. i have horrible bruises, yes, bruises on the back of each heel. (the cute purple ones with the elastic-back heel that seemed so great? they suck. and today i talked to no less than three women, one of which gave away practically brand new tory burch flats with the elastic-back heel becuase of the pain they inflicted. save yourself the pain and the money. they are BAD).

but

i had a spare pair at work by TOTAL luck. hooray for that! otherwise idon't know what i would have done.

had comfort food dinner made by my mom

listened to the flaming lips and foo fighters on the bus

came home to my sweet dog and my fiance

a good ending, no?

i've been bad

about blogging, at least. i have been so busy at work that i haven't had the desire to come home and type away about something. . . especially since that something would have to have been about work, since that was all that i was doing. this week should be better. still, i spent the weekend recovering, so there's not much to report.
i did see blades of glory on friday night, with william at home. funny!
britney's situation is getting sadder and sadder.
i am coveting a pair of brown leather tall boots at aldo this weekend that i really want. finally, boots with a kitten heel and that don't look like they came from the ranch. but i have to be good. does anyone out there want to buy me brown leather boots from aldo? come on. . .
i went to barnes & nobel with a gift certificate and bought a few books. hooray!
which, you ask?
bitter is the new black
lipstick jihad
the little black book of style
specialty topics in calamity physics
yay!
groceries today.
i live a very hott lifestyle.
oh! wait! i did get a free small sample of la mer today. that's right. la mer. now hopefully i'll have celebrity-clear skin. at least for as long as the sample lasts.

so tired

hi kids.
crazy working continues--i got home at 7 am today, after working since 830 the morning before. typing this is actually quite difficult. sleep is such a good, good, good thing. molly's here to help show me the way.
that's all for now.

why can't i speak whenever i talk about you?

more like, why can't i speak?
the last two days i've been rendered worse than marge's sisters...i think all the working, and, admittedly, a couple of late nights have finally taken a toll. yesterday morning i woke up and i could just feel it. you know the feeling.. it's what i've taken to calling yuck-throat. itchy, goopy, sore. initially, i was scared i was getting tonsillitis again---i had it three times last year--but it seems to just be some weird virus going around. my sister, (who's a nurse for those of you that don't know susie) told me people have been getting it. so anyway, it progressed to now, which is half my throat swollen, my ear hurting, but not much else for symptoms. i was kinda cold today and it was like a jungle outside but i don't think i'm feverish.
my momma told me there'd be days like this.
hopefully i'll be better by this weekend so i might be able to enjoy some time off.
william was gone this weekend, and now it's his turn to work late--last night he didn't get home til 11:30, tonight he's still gone at 10 p.m. we've just had no time lately to do anything for the wedding. next up: save-the-dates, catering details. i'll keep ya posted.
oh, susie ordered her dress for the wedding. it's from j crew and she got it on super sale (must be something about us sisters). originally $250, now nearly under $100 with shipping--not bad! it's "bright sherbet" and has a tank-style top, a-line silhouette, to the knee. it's pretty plain in styling, very tailored, not too dressy but not too casual--and hot pink! can't go wrong. it's really pretty and i think will be perfect for her.
also, could i be more addicted to TLC? the cable channel that is. i love all these shows....it's ridiculous. miami ink, what not to wear, that show about the sextuplets/twins family....i'm a junkie.i wish i got the channel with the wedding stuff on it.
all right. i must turn in for the night. sorry for the lack of good posts lately. i'm so tired and now sick...
more oj, then nighty-night.