hi friends. this week will be a crazy one, i can just tell. i'm overbooked already. and it's only monday.
i have been running all night and i'm wicked tired. my eyes are starting to close as i type this. so i must run.
but coming soon: the bachelorette party i'm planning. a bridesmaid dress story. how i love target. my just-thinking-about-all-the-stuff-i-have-to-do-gives-me-heart-palpitations month of december.
but for now: beauty rest. god knows i need it, with my two giant blemishes and wrinkles around my eyes.
Showing posts with label crazy day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label crazy day. Show all posts
Monday, December 3, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
foot amputation needed
it was long. and my feet really hurt. and at one point i thought that i would have to take my shoes off and walk in my stockings in the skyway back to my office. also, i fell down. will have to write about that tomorrow. i'm an idiot. it's funny. but i'm brain dead so i won't do it justice. so think about THAT.
must sleep. early morning tomorrow.
also, my mom rules. that is all.
must sleep. early morning tomorrow.
also, my mom rules. that is all.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
so tired
hi kids.
crazy working continues--i got home at 7 am today, after working since 830 the morning before. typing this is actually quite difficult. sleep is such a good, good, good thing. molly's here to help show me the way.
that's all for now.
crazy working continues--i got home at 7 am today, after working since 830 the morning before. typing this is actually quite difficult. sleep is such a good, good, good thing. molly's here to help show me the way.
that's all for now.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
crazy, crazy
hi there. i'm back in crazy mode with my professional life, which will continue through the weekend and into next week, so stick with me if posts are few and not very well thought out.
it's finally gotten cooler here. it smells like fall in the air. nooooooooo! i will go kicking and stomping my feet. it's just not right. it's not officially the end of summer yet, but tomorrow's only supposed to hit 55 degrees. my building hasn't even switched our heating/cooling to the heat side, so we don't have heat! i'm seeing blankets and hot showers in my future.
god, thinking about this now, i feel like i could really go for a Vichy shower. too bad, no cash. maybe i can treat myself after this work project is over.
william and i haven't been up to much, seeing as how i have been professionally preoccupied. molly has been reaping the benefits of long hours over at my parents' house, where my dad feeds her "beef, with a little bit of gravy, like she likes it." seriously? my dog is going to get obese.
we have started looking into places to stay on our honeymoon; we're going to kauai after we get married on maui. there are some really kick ass places for super reasonable amounts ($140 a night? $100 a night? sold!)i really hope that if we do the helicopter tour my fear of flying doesn't kick in. i don't want to take xanax for that (yes, i medicate on flights, no other times). i wouldn't want to be all zoned out for that! i can't believe how fast our engagement is going... time has just flown.
ok, off i go to edit some stuff. i hope you are watching tv and eating ice cream for me. can you relax for me and send me some of that energy? thanks, friends!
it's finally gotten cooler here. it smells like fall in the air. nooooooooo! i will go kicking and stomping my feet. it's just not right. it's not officially the end of summer yet, but tomorrow's only supposed to hit 55 degrees. my building hasn't even switched our heating/cooling to the heat side, so we don't have heat! i'm seeing blankets and hot showers in my future.
god, thinking about this now, i feel like i could really go for a Vichy shower. too bad, no cash. maybe i can treat myself after this work project is over.
william and i haven't been up to much, seeing as how i have been professionally preoccupied. molly has been reaping the benefits of long hours over at my parents' house, where my dad feeds her "beef, with a little bit of gravy, like she likes it." seriously? my dog is going to get obese.
we have started looking into places to stay on our honeymoon; we're going to kauai after we get married on maui. there are some really kick ass places for super reasonable amounts ($140 a night? $100 a night? sold!)i really hope that if we do the helicopter tour my fear of flying doesn't kick in. i don't want to take xanax for that (yes, i medicate on flights, no other times). i wouldn't want to be all zoned out for that! i can't believe how fast our engagement is going... time has just flown.
ok, off i go to edit some stuff. i hope you are watching tv and eating ice cream for me. can you relax for me and send me some of that energy? thanks, friends!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
crazy life
hi kids.
this has been a crazy week again. working a lot, and running around a lot at night too. it's the fast-track to exhaustion. really. it gets to the end of the night and i'm tired and braindead.
this weekend there's more stuff, a big event for work and an out-of-town wedding, so excuse the lack of post-age. i will try the next couple days though. although i'm not that interesting right now.
we put half the money down on our ceremony and photgraphy in maui though. i can't believe we're really going to do it. maui! i'm getting married in maui! weird. it's a big thing to look forward to when things are so stressful in other areas of my life. if i have a really bad day, i look up images on google of hawaii and i'm transported to the happy place. :) otherwise i call friends, talk to william, or just go to bed. i have been having trouble fallnig asleep before midnight lately. that's bad. i need a lot of sleep.
ok, enough with the boringness of my daily asinine thoughts. here's a post i was working on, and wanted to work on more, but if i continue to work on it, it will never get posted.
Things I Am Afraid Of (not ranked):
1. bugs
2. spiders
3. centipedes
4. bugs
5. snakes
6. Actually, I have a saying “no fur, no feathers, no good”
7. The ghost activities at my parents’ house
8. people I know dying or being sick
9. failure
10. loneliness
11. change
12. sometimes I’m afraid of getting over my anxieties because then what do I do? I know that makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. But fears are not rational.
13. feeling helpless
14. when I open my trunk, something scary/bad will be in there. This is only sometimes.
15. When it’s dark and you turn off the tv and it glows. Hate that. Something is coming out of that screen.
16. Car accidents
17. One particular scene from the exorcist, but not the whole movie
18. I get claustrophobic when shirts get stuck on, especially in dressing rooms. It induces this stupid panic that I know is ridiculous but happens nonetheless.
19. Childrens’ loss of innocence.
20. Mediocrity
21. Presidential hijacking of power
22. Global warming
23. Not doing things because I’m too scared/intimidated—usually I find I love those things if I can open myself up to them enough.
24. Clowns
25. flying
Things I am not afraid of (also not ranked):
1. public speaking
2. loving people
3. heights (as long as I am on a stable surface, which I consider rollercoasters a stable surface)
4. I can put myself in my “journalist mode” and approach people at bars, on sidewalks, or cold calls and talk away—people I’d maybe even never approach personally. If I am not in journalist mode, I sometimes have to work to get myself there to do it.
5. Bats (as long as they’re outside)
6. Getting married
7. Writing personal things that people read
8. Most scary movies (except Halloween films and that one scene mentioned above)
I spend a lot of time with my neuroses. I nurse them, enable them, fret about them. I fret about fretting.
I have been a worrier since day one. I don’t know why. I’ve gotten much better over the years—and have gotten over some fears—but still many anxieties linger, and I’ve developed some new, healthy-sized ones. I’ve always wished I could worry less. I’ve always wished I could confront change without fear—even with welcoming arms. I have wished on occasions that I could get over it so that I could try something or do something, and I’ve let it hold me back. I am not one of these people that believes if you are afraid of spiders, you have to let them crawl on you to get over it. That would just induce a complete and total meltdown. I have suffered panic attacks. I have allowed small things to get me really down. I am a very sensitive person.
As time has worn on, though, I’ve given myself permission to be that way. We’re all hardwired, in a sense, to be our personalities. And that permission has allowed me to get over certain anxieties without even realizing it… they’ve just vanished into the ether. Still, it sometimes invokes a melancholy, a frustration, too much thought. And regret.
After I finished school, which was the one thing I thought I was really good at, I wondered what was next. What else can I overachieve at? (I don’t care that there’s a dangling preposition there.) I still haven’t figured it out. What are my next steps?
I would like to:
Take ballroom dance classes
Take cooking classes
Plant a garden
Write a book
Get published in a national magazine
Play guitar well
Do more crafty things
Learn to knit
Travel the world (Iceland, China, Thailand, somewhere in Africa, Poland, Ireland, Belize, Russia, Spain, and yes, Jennie, Paraguay)
Be a good money manager
Live joyfully and in the moment
Take more time to appreciate what I have than think about the what-ifs and should-haves
Enjoy my accomplishments (I must have some, right?) and help people enjoy theirs
Feel helpful
Make people feel good
Be a good dog-mom
Make more killer CD mixes ( I love doing this but haven’t had a lot of time lately)
Have more energy
Never regret
Like exercise
Sorry for the list form. I just don’t have the energy/creativity to actually write a story that shows, rather than tells. Forgive me.
this has been a crazy week again. working a lot, and running around a lot at night too. it's the fast-track to exhaustion. really. it gets to the end of the night and i'm tired and braindead.
this weekend there's more stuff, a big event for work and an out-of-town wedding, so excuse the lack of post-age. i will try the next couple days though. although i'm not that interesting right now.
we put half the money down on our ceremony and photgraphy in maui though. i can't believe we're really going to do it. maui! i'm getting married in maui! weird. it's a big thing to look forward to when things are so stressful in other areas of my life. if i have a really bad day, i look up images on google of hawaii and i'm transported to the happy place. :) otherwise i call friends, talk to william, or just go to bed. i have been having trouble fallnig asleep before midnight lately. that's bad. i need a lot of sleep.
ok, enough with the boringness of my daily asinine thoughts. here's a post i was working on, and wanted to work on more, but if i continue to work on it, it will never get posted.
Things I Am Afraid Of (not ranked):
1. bugs
2. spiders
3. centipedes
4. bugs
5. snakes
6. Actually, I have a saying “no fur, no feathers, no good”
7. The ghost activities at my parents’ house
8. people I know dying or being sick
9. failure
10. loneliness
11. change
12. sometimes I’m afraid of getting over my anxieties because then what do I do? I know that makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. But fears are not rational.
13. feeling helpless
14. when I open my trunk, something scary/bad will be in there. This is only sometimes.
15. When it’s dark and you turn off the tv and it glows. Hate that. Something is coming out of that screen.
16. Car accidents
17. One particular scene from the exorcist, but not the whole movie
18. I get claustrophobic when shirts get stuck on, especially in dressing rooms. It induces this stupid panic that I know is ridiculous but happens nonetheless.
19. Childrens’ loss of innocence.
20. Mediocrity
21. Presidential hijacking of power
22. Global warming
23. Not doing things because I’m too scared/intimidated—usually I find I love those things if I can open myself up to them enough.
24. Clowns
25. flying
Things I am not afraid of (also not ranked):
1. public speaking
2. loving people
3. heights (as long as I am on a stable surface, which I consider rollercoasters a stable surface)
4. I can put myself in my “journalist mode” and approach people at bars, on sidewalks, or cold calls and talk away—people I’d maybe even never approach personally. If I am not in journalist mode, I sometimes have to work to get myself there to do it.
5. Bats (as long as they’re outside)
6. Getting married
7. Writing personal things that people read
8. Most scary movies (except Halloween films and that one scene mentioned above)
I spend a lot of time with my neuroses. I nurse them, enable them, fret about them. I fret about fretting.
I have been a worrier since day one. I don’t know why. I’ve gotten much better over the years—and have gotten over some fears—but still many anxieties linger, and I’ve developed some new, healthy-sized ones. I’ve always wished I could worry less. I’ve always wished I could confront change without fear—even with welcoming arms. I have wished on occasions that I could get over it so that I could try something or do something, and I’ve let it hold me back. I am not one of these people that believes if you are afraid of spiders, you have to let them crawl on you to get over it. That would just induce a complete and total meltdown. I have suffered panic attacks. I have allowed small things to get me really down. I am a very sensitive person.
As time has worn on, though, I’ve given myself permission to be that way. We’re all hardwired, in a sense, to be our personalities. And that permission has allowed me to get over certain anxieties without even realizing it… they’ve just vanished into the ether. Still, it sometimes invokes a melancholy, a frustration, too much thought. And regret.
After I finished school, which was the one thing I thought I was really good at, I wondered what was next. What else can I overachieve at? (I don’t care that there’s a dangling preposition there.) I still haven’t figured it out. What are my next steps?
I would like to:
Take ballroom dance classes
Take cooking classes
Plant a garden
Write a book
Get published in a national magazine
Play guitar well
Do more crafty things
Learn to knit
Travel the world (Iceland, China, Thailand, somewhere in Africa, Poland, Ireland, Belize, Russia, Spain, and yes, Jennie, Paraguay)
Be a good money manager
Live joyfully and in the moment
Take more time to appreciate what I have than think about the what-ifs and should-haves
Enjoy my accomplishments (I must have some, right?) and help people enjoy theirs
Feel helpful
Make people feel good
Be a good dog-mom
Make more killer CD mixes ( I love doing this but haven’t had a lot of time lately)
Have more energy
Never regret
Like exercise
Sorry for the list form. I just don’t have the energy/creativity to actually write a story that shows, rather than tells. Forgive me.
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